forgiveness is love, expanded

This short thought is dedicated to my pupils who constantly inspire me, also by reflecting the stages of my personal development.

I was indeed facing the inner crossroads of wanting to survive whilst seeking the illumination, when the thought of forgiving hit me.

Trying to underestimate the concept, and in an ego-overflow, I simply sat down and started writing long letters to my mother and to my father where I would just tell them that I forgave them completely for what they had done to me; that I was over it, I completely understood the entire matter, and I definitely had overcome what was behind us.

Mah - I said to myself. Then, I crumpled the papers and threw them away.

… oops!: that wasn’t true at all!

… and I allowed the problem to set aside, just leaving that door opened, so the solution could come by.

4 months - the complete cycle of the Earth force - have passed, and I now start to realize something, which I spoiled in the title and I am anyway going to repeat: forgiveness is love, expanded.

It was during a meditation, that I got distracted by the constant presence of the neighbor’s son in, out and around my house, even when he’s not here - the guy has the solid capacity of traveling outside of his body … if you knew him, you’d clearly understand that.

And I asked myself how or what could I do in order to set the definitive peace around me. I then imagined to sit him down, and confess my love for his essence, for he is a very special person I am grateful for, and I feel blessed to have met him. I started feeling pure love towards him, and then it hit me:

feeling this extreme pure love (and gratitude) made me observe the simplicity of the thing: love comes after forgiveness, and you can feel forgiveness without love, but you can’t feel love without forgiveness. Therefore you could just focus on loving indefinitely, and observe how forgiveness comes implicitly.

That’s why my intuition dared to try writing them about forgiveness, because it is indeed implicit to love. And I sort of love them indefinitely when I practice metta, so I just have to let the metta take over my daily life.

… easy, isn’t it?