the person you are born being
During my quest of truth, I passed through some evil times, that brought me to humiliation. Relatively public, I would say, since Destiny had put me through an acting career, where someone would always be watching.
John Strasberg used to say “you can lie to yourself, but you cannot lie to me”. I trusted this - and he was absolutely right, although I was aware of this fact that I was lying to myself. I wasn’t able to recognize how, when or in which forms and contexts, but I knew.
Due to the personal upbringing, every person is brought to embody society’s rules, manners and - sometimes - streams of thoughts. Being positive, as it being negative, there should always be an attention to the expression of the true self, in these rules and manners, so that the streams of thoughts could become original, if not creative and subversive.
Through our intuition, we often get the message that the way we are behaving isn’t right - for us! Not answering when we want to, keep the butt on the chair when we really want to go outside and … , wearing something only because it was a gift … behaviors that we enact because of our idea of being someone who will ultimately not be casted out of society, when we don’t recognize that we can be the start, the fulcrum around which this new society gathers: people similar to us, who want to be free.
This raises the question of freedom, and how harmful it can be for the others, when not controlled. A thing, that to me sounds absurd, because I identify freedom with peace.
Being at peace with your impulses and the true facades and nuances of who you are, will bring you to re-dimension yourself and control or analyze what is harmful to the others and yourself. It is what happens to 98% of the prisoners (maybe because 60% of them should not indeed be there) and to most of the people in rehab: because we are wise beings, and our wisdom is the only thing that remains when everything is taken out - schemes, allies, wealth…
When everything is lost, we are able to go back to the root causes of “how did this happen?” and “when did the crack start?” and “who was I born being?”.
Starting a quest that has to be pursued and has to cause actions related to the creation of the space for the true self to thrive.
“The inner child”, which is the authentic “me”.
Thus we free ourselves from some chains - like the Devil of the Tarots suggests - and close circles, cast out bad habits, increase healthy behaviors and modify our surroundings.
We become the shape of who we want to be, that we always wanted and dreamed about being, when we were children and we wished for nothing but the best for us.
Grow your wings, become the astronaut. Give space to your ability to connect to the infinite. And thrive.